Thankful

The baby has had an ear infection. I was up most for far too many hours over the Thanksgiving holiday, especially in the dead of night. We are on the second med for it, but she is healing up.

I’ve got a head cold myself and it makes the lack of sleep harder. I was beset by carbs over the holiday and made some good choices and some not good ones. I kept fighting through it all.

I am working hard and still tracking, still fighting the fight. E2 is sleeping in my arms right now, I will try another transfer in a few minutes. I just finished up some letters for my side business I launched to help balance the family budget

Sometimes it seems like so much but the truth is that I have so much to be Thankful for. And in the dark room, by the light of a laptop, listening to toddler snores and cat purrs it seems like anything is possible.

  • I am so thankful to be where I am, and headed down a path to health.
  • I am so thankful to be part of my family. To have Mr. Goat by my side and E1 and E2.
  • I am so thankful for my friends, my family, my blog.
  • I am thankful for my job and the kids and families I get to know.
  • I am thankful for my cats.
  • I am thankful for sleep when I get it.
  • I am thankful for my messy house and my laundry piles and my messy car and my dirty dishes.
  • I am thankful for my fridge of mostly healthy food.
  • I am blessed in abundant ways, and most of it is not of my own doing.

I get whiny far too often about the busy life I lead and how it is so Haaaaarrrrrrdddd to be me. And it feels that way sometimes, but it is also really fabulous too and those times are few and far between.

This season of life, it is crazy. I am learning to embrace the craziness and lean into it and let it teach me about how I am capable of more than I can imagine. I fight for the things that are important – my family, my health, my vocation. I juggle, I prioritize, I plan and I adjust. There is more I’d like to add to my life – I need a regular gym life again for example. But some of these things will come. I can be healthy without that, and I am making progress toward it.

I am not perfect. But I am thankful for the mistakes I make and my ability to learn from them.

I am not supermom. But I am thankful that I get to keep trying again each day.

I will never be a Pinterest sensation, a viral video, a professional athlete or a parenting guru. I will be me. I am thankful for the me I am. Messy, imperfect and awesome me.

Thanks God. I’ll keep on being the best me I can.