Weight Watchers Weigh In Week 50: This is not my reflection on 2014, nor my goals for 2015. Honestly I’m not in a great space to think about those things. I am sick of being sick and sick of holidays and food being everywhere. It is a mess. However, I continue to fight for good choices: I weighed in today. I tracked today. I ordered my light box today.

Weigh in was ugly but could have been worse:

+5.0 Pounds
88.3 lbs Lost to Date

I cannot seem to keep my head in the game right now. I am desperate for some normalcy: school to be back in session, well children and parents, normal work weeks, no parties. There is one more family Christmas to go (Thurs) and one party to go to (our holiday party on Friday – no kids FTW). After I navigate those things I should be back on more solid footing.

*Related: New WW Coupon: 6 Months for $128!

I think what troubles me most is the shakiness I feel – a loss of confidence in my ability to get the job done when it comes to weight loss. I am sure some of that is depression and illness talking but decisions seem more and more uncertain these days. That is what makes me most uneasy about this teeter totter weight loss/gain I’ve had this month – the doubt that it gives me.

Life is low key tonight. The baby is already in bed – she is still on the mend. E1 won’t be staying up either – too cranky and we have family Christmas celebration tomorrow. There is a bottle of winc wine for Mr. Goat and I to toast in the new year and talk about what’s on tap for 2015. I imagine it will have lots of good and bad stuff in it, but I am certain that it will never be dull.

See ya next year!

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