Weigh In Week 49: Christmas Edition – Greetings from WI. We are visiting family over the holidays and managed to get mostly well enough to make the trip, though we are still
I have been still struggling but in the last two days have made some important changes toward getting back in the game. I wish I had realized earlier that this wasn’t quite a “I want to
88.0 lbs Lost on WW to date
oof. That is a hard one to stomach. There is no denying it, I made poor choices this week. Some of them were for positive things. Like Date Night on Friday night to the St. Olaf Christmas Festival including a Norwegian buffet with many tasty once-a-year treats. (Lefse, not lutefisk)
Insulin is expensive.
Note to self: avoid diabetes.
Still no matter how you slice it, I fell down this week. I made poor choices. I chose to eat foods I shouldn’t have. I chose not to track. I seem to be incapable of doing things “part way.” I cannot just eat freely for one meal. One meal leads to two, to a day, to a week.
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I cannot stop at one dessert. Or one spoon of peanut butter. Or a few chips.
However, all is not lost. It never is and there are always new choices to be made. So this week I am making good ones. I tracked and was solid all day long. I ate veggies, I drank water, I got in 10,000 steps despite (because of?) a 12 hour work day.
I can do better. I plan to.
In the wisdom of a fellow Fitblogger…
But hey I went and I weighed in anyway.
93.2 lbs Lost on WW to Date
With Thanksgiving and illness, sleep deprivation and lots going on, I saw this one coming. I am not terribly upset about it because I know that as frustrated as this week was I did most of my damage on Thurs/Fri while I was sick, traveling, had Thanksgiving, and dealing with a baby with an ear infection. The most important thing for me is that I did not throw in the towel. I wanted to, but I didn’t. Instead I kept tracking and I scaled back my eating to match my daily points.
I wasn’t perfect, but I rarely am.
“I will hold myself to a standard of GRACE, not perfection.”
I have been sad today. It is the kind of sad that finds me when I am beyond tired – a melancholy about people (myself primarily). I saw a person on Twitter belittle herself while posting a new “before” picture. While I don’t know her personally, the 140 characters implied that for her worth and weight are related. It made me sad.
I always get sad when I see someone who is a bit overweight and feels that it honestly effects their worth as a person. If that was true, I would still be worthless despite my weight loss. The person on Twitter was considerable smaller than I am now, likely 50+ lbs smaller, but the comparison is immaterial. Worth is not dependent on weight. Period. You are a beloved child of God. Chosen. Loved. Blessed. Worthy. And so am I.
A number on the scale doesn’t dictate anything but our weight. There are hosts of reasons to want to lose weight, but I don’t want anyone to think it is to become worthy of someone or something, or especially of God. Grace and love don’t work that way.
I gained. I am human, a tired human, but one who keeps on trying. If all I can say about this week is that I kept trying then I am doing just fine.
I am more confident because I had a strong week. I earned a few activity points, I used my weeklies, but didn’t go over those. I enjoyed myself, had a few treats and lots of veggies. I didn’t drink enough water. That is a real challenge for me lately as I am more and more looking to coffee (or tea) to keep me going with E2 still struggling for a good nights sleep (She has an ear infection now, and a lingering cold). I need to up the water intact, which I will try to work on while off for a few days.
Still, it was a good week.
95.6 lbs Lost on WW to Date
It is fun to be so close to 100 lbs on Weight Watchers. Before I got pregnant with E2 I was plateaued and had gained a few lbs back so I was hovering between 70-75lbs lost. There is still a ways to go, but it is really amazing to be here so far. I really hope to make it to 100lbs lost before my 1 year WW-iversary. If I stay strong through the holidays that shouldn’t be a problem.
95 lbs is tough to put into perspective, but it is 19
Weight Watchers Weigh In: I just at dinner at 10:15 at night, so you can tell it has been a long day. So I am going to keep this short and sweet. Thank you for the encouragement and feedback
90.6 lbs Lost on WW to date
Yes, two pounds is disappointing but there are a lot of bright spots in this gain.
It was ONLY two pounds. With great weight loss comes the potential for great weight gain. That it is only 2 lbs shows me that my efforts to regroup were partially successful.
I tracked it even on my worst eating days this week. There have been times when slipping up means not tracking and having a free-for-all for days, instead I kept tracking despite my eating.
I ended the week strong and in control. Tuesday I stayed in my daily points and I kept an eye on things. I was back on track BEFORE my weigh in rather than giving up on the week and waiting to start over.
Any of these alone is a NSV, the fact that all three are true is an indicator of how far I’ve come. The other thing that I should point out is a lack of shame. I tend to look at guilt and shame as different things. I can feel guilty for something I have done. Guilt is an emotion tied to my actions. Shame on the other hand seems to be tied to my person. Guilt can help me notice and change my behavior for the future, shame is just a form of self-hate more detrimental than helpful to me.
There have been times when failure leads me to be shamed, i.e. I am somehow not a good person because I failed. That seems to be a type of thinking that is fading away for me. Sure, it rears its ugly head from time to time, but mostly I know it is a lie. I have worth, no matter my weight or my successes or failures.
So I had a gain this week. It happened, I caused it. Now I will remedy it. Here is to having a great week this week!
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Though I started Weight Watchers in January and us that initial weigh in as a starting weight I also have the weigh in on the morning of my c-section with E2. I gained way too much weight with her, partially because I was stressed and ate emotionally, partially because constant eating kept me from getting sick, partially from bedrest/water retention and the sheer fact my body does not do pregnancy well.
I am going to be so bold as to throw some real numbers out at you today because I think this week deserves to be celebrated for my year’s efforts.
This week’s result:
– 8.5 Pounds
BUT that is not all! Take a look at some of this data.
- Weight on 11/7/13 (E2′s birth day): 382lbs
- Weight on 1/8/14 when I started WW: 347.6lbs
- Weight on 11/5/14: 255lbs
I got back home at 2pm and headed to work. Home at 8:45pm and stayed with E1 until he fell asleep. In all that I managed to hop on the scale at my sister’s place
84.1 lbs lost to date
Pleased for a loss but more pleased to be home safely and that no one was hurt in the explosion. The more time passes the more I realize how scary it was to see something like that first hand. If I close my eyes I see this in my head.
I’ll have more to say about this but for now sleep is the most important next step. So I am going to kiss the kids once more and sleep, hopefully until morning.
Weight Watchers Weigh-In Week 40: There is some amazing conversation and insight in the comments of yesterday’s post on 80/20. Check it out and join the conversation if you can.
The cat goes to the vet tomorrow for the mysterious lesion that is not cancer that keeps coming back. E1 is off of school for MEA and all in all I am struggling to find time to do things. However, I am still tracking, doing my PT and I snuck away to go to weight watcher today.
And there was good news on that front:
84.4 lbs lost on WW to date
Sometimes I feel sort of let down by a 1lb weight loss, as if that wasn’t enough, but the fact of the matter is that any movement in the right direction is a good one. The little choices add up. I found a new quotation this week that really spoke to me.
“I am tomorrow, or some future day, what I establish today. I am today what I established yesterday or some previous day.” – James Joyce
It really struck me that the choices I make today effect my future self – it will be a reflection of the present me. I guess I always knew this but for some reason it struck me powerfully this week. I am in control of my future self – at least when it comes to the healthy choices I can make today.
Weight loss is a tricky thing and lately I’ve had people express some awe that I am able to lose weight while being so busy – the fact of the matter is this: I need to do this, I don’t look on it as optional. It is as important to me as being a good parent, a good wife, a good employee.